OMGG

P A N I C attack!! HURRY UP ALREADY WELL YOU;////

After so many years hearing from my parents, family, friends..etc…I think I have really really finally hit the spot of the lesson…..I can remain blind..and lie to myself..that I can handle it..and I can do it..& will overcome it…forget about the life I truly want…forget about the type of man I truly need….or I can open my eye again….search for the the life I want….search for the person who will not leave me in doubt…I know..I am selfish…

If you ask me how I’m feeling today…I will answer you from the bottom of my heart;/

I feel terrible…I went to sleep with a confused heart & woke up with unexplained feeling..

but, as we all know…life goes on..forced myself to get ready & go along with my everyday life…work my butt off to keep me busy..keep me away from thinking about him..about us..& whats going to happen next….as busy as I was at work..I still found my heart pounding..pounding in pain………………………………………………if we are meant to be..then we will always end up together again right??…..If tomorrow…there’s no us….I shouldn’t be sad & depressed..because…If we are really meant to be for each other…then we will find our way to each other again…& if were not..then maybe this was the best for us…I don’t want to drag you & I down…if already know that Its gonna end later anyways…..but..I will let thiis time..be the best for us..or at least..happy moments…..let my heart find its answer…& then…maybe..we’ll find each other again someday along the way;)